what?

why do i feel worthless? and hopeless? if i am worthless and hopeless why am i still here? is the application "how heartless are you" in facebook true? that im 90% heartless?

i suddenly realize this after reading a blog of a filipina abroad feeling helpless because shes far from manila and would have thrown herself in helping the flooded people if shed be here.
i cant see myself really caring for the flooded people in manila, except to those whom i know personally but why on earth do i feel like this? or why dont i feel anything? i feel disturbed by this, i know im a caring person but whats happening with me?

though im hoping that all those people who are capable of helping will help them for their long term needs.