tHe ITcH Is Contagious!! ;)

too long to be another comment...hehe

Thanks marelle.. hehe honestly, alam kong im just delaying the job hunting, but my reasons are my fear and what i said on the last paragraph of my entry "still thinking". i think im trapped coz i want to change things(i feel like they have to change before i'll leave them for work). i do not want to work here in Olongapo, i dont think ill be independent here.hehe anyways i feel like if i leave everything will fall to one person.

No one knows about this change things i want to do, because i want it to occur "naturally". naturally as in they'll realize it without me pointing it out because if i say it, it wont be understood. trust me, because im always wrong.hehe i know im not smart, especially with living life but i think ive seen enough for me to know that i might be right on this one and im doing this for love.hehe gulo noh? nde ko kasi pwedeng sabihin, at nde ko din ma-explain ung gusto ko.hehe

anyways txt mo ako kung alam mu na kung saan bibili ng tikets sa eheads ha..;)

in relation to the change thing, me and my mama have a trip to palawan on the first week of feb. and from the moment i said i want to come they've been thinking for reasons for me not to come. most of their reasons makes me feel selfish again and its true that im being selfish but i think this would start the change im saying. if they survive for 4days without me and mama then i can start looking for a job. ;) and besides this oppurtunity could start a new mother-daughter relationship, we could bond.hehe