wishlist..

time to check on the developments on my wishlist..;) i am super very happy.. as in over the top kind of happiness but its not showing!!

1. to pass the board exams and my friends and classmates too!! this June 100% please!! (purely divine intervention) = i passed the boards!! i now can put RN after my name.. i am happy but the celebration is still not complete bcoz within my circle of friends two did not made it..

2. for a peaceful vacation to a beach and learn surfing..

3. for a Digital camera

4. for aPSP = got it!! thanks to my brother..hehe

5.for an ipod touch =i got ipod nano, its not what i wished for but i think its what i really need.. thanks to my ninang..:)

6.for a Rottweiler or a cocker spaniel = i dont think i should pursue this wish i dont think ill have time for another dog.. i dont even have time for my current dog.. poor baby..

7. for a date with mike shinoda(i must be sleeping now..) = i know this is to good to be true but ill keep on wishing..hehe their latest cd is the closest thing i could ever get..hehe

8.for a laptop

9. for a new cellphone

10.for a body piercing

11.for an awesome job by next year!!

4 out of 11 wishes eliminated or granted..hehe not bad.. actually even if the only wish granted is number 1 i'll still be happy.. im not just happy im more.. i cant explain, mixed feelings? theres fear and excitement. i feel like there are a lot of places i can be.. a lot of things i can do.. i dont know where to start but i know when..hehe i feel fear because i just achieve something i could lose. but that wont stop me from trying. hayy.. why cant i express my feelings? i should bake something..hmm.. ;)

inked up!!

i heart tattoos!! since i cant remember when. there are only a few persons around me that know this, it'll be a surprise for some of them if they found out i have one. well, the only ones i had before are temporary. and i got them because its summer and one when we had a play in high school. i just realized that my tattoo was not appropriate for the play. we were fairies , and my tattoo was on my arm!!!HaHa.. I'm one fairy you should not mess with!!
i like simple tattoo and the ones that have meaning for the person. the ones that does not look like a mess.
There were times before that id like to have a tattoo but never found the courage and seven best-unbreakable reasons to have one. i have a few reasons why i should not but now i already have answers for it.
1. my soon to be profession. before,i think it'll make it more difficult for people to have a decent work and in my line of "soon-to-be-work" i dont really think patients will be comfortable in the idea that their nurse have tattoos. now, i think people are more open and they accept the idea of self expression in any ways they would like.
2. i cant donate blood. this was before i knew that i really cant donate blood, I'm anemic and underweight for height. seeing me walk in a blood bank they'll think I'm a patient. ;) And i "heard" that after a few years of having a tattoo or body piercing, one can already donate blood.
3. i dont have seven best and unbreakable reason to have it. i dont think i need 7 best and unbreakable reasons before i would decide to have one. because i dont have any reasons not to!!
The movie Wanted woke up that sleeping side of me that's been thinking about the 7 best and unbreakable reasons. seeing Angelina Jolie with her tattoos makes me feel sexy.haha and envious at the same time, it makes me remember the line that was said in a sports channel were they featured extreme sports and one of the sports was surfing which is one of my frustrations besides tattoos. it was "We do what your mama won't let you!". Makes me wanna crawl out of my shell and bare myself to the world and be able to say that same line. i just dont know what is really keeping me but I'm feeling that the wait wont be long anymore. for now i'll just look at these pictures:

Sick-O

i think and feel that I'm going to be sick.. with the flu and all that drama. i cant be sick, i have plans for tomorrow

1. watch whoever will windsurf at the boardwalk. or just walk

2. go to bebe's new house, crash it and maybe force bebe to cook for lunch.

3. watch something.

and On monday i want to see Paul. i/we miss him.

so i cant be sick. i have to drink something Now..

something to remember...

i love to read this over and over and over again.. it makes me feel calm and look at things differently.. its from the book the five people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom.

"Learn this from me. Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves." - Ruby

i really need to keep this in mind!!

Freaky..

i hate small crawling animals and insects!!! i hate frogs, real frogs. its not their appearance that made me hate them its what they do to me. im an animal lover and i live peacefully with mother earth and nature, i have never done anything to give these little creatures reasons to hate me(as i can remember). and i especially hate how they always, as in always caught me off guard!!(they are the only creatures i think that could ever caught me off guard several times in my whole life and i know that what happend tonight could happen again). they're really sneaky and on time. so what happend is i was to go to our third floor to look for the cassete tape that comes with a book for reading. i need it for my niece because she's having a hard time reading and i think with her age she should be good by now. anyways im on the second step going to the third my left foot was left on the second step and as i raised it to take another step a lizard fell, its an adult lizard and its stout!! of all the places it could fell why on me? why on my foot? and im not sure if it actually fell or if it jumped on me. weird super weird, does it really aim for me? for a really small fellow i dont think its smart to jump on a big moving thing, and i dont think that lizards are brave creatures. a more weird thing that happend is that i didnt react abruptly or i didnt think that it could be a lizard, the thing that went in to my mind is that its a bra that clinged to my foot. i have no idea where that came from or why would i think that a bra is left on the stairs!! when i realized that it was a lizard i shook it off and i think it takes about 5 secs before it released it self from me. i hate it.. well i didnt scream coz its late already id probably wake my mom if i do, so i just kept the reaction and jumping quitely. another incident that happend before and this time its with a frog. my dog Alundra gave birth and she was staying at the back of our house, i think she feels safe there. anyways one night when i finished giving her dinner and i was to return to our house out of nowhere there it is blocking my way, staring at me(i think) i couldnt move when i saw it but i know that i was "cornered" there is nowhere to run for or even to jump up to, im in between the back of our house and just about a meter or less to the tall "fence". i called for my mom but theyre not taking me seriously, i think the distressing yell i made, made my dad come out and he was laughing at me saying. "anlaki laki mo eh." i dont think being bigger than the opponent is a major advantage especially when you are paralized by the moments you remember when seeing one, its like re-living the time when it all began. as my father was trying to make it go away instead of going the other way or the way where it can hide it went towards me! i was freaking scared!! i yelled like i was to be stabbed by a robber or a killer just showed up to my face!!. i cried!! all i can do is to step backwards and if it continued to go my way it would surely jump on me, just like what happend when i was little another frog had me cornered, i can still remember how it sort of walked towards me and i can still feel its skin, its feet and belly its wetness on my LEFT foot. i really think its attacking me, and up to now they always show up blocking my way, some i may not see and eventually ACCIDENTALLY kick. the point is they are blocking my way. so back to the story, my dad managed to move it somewhere, i dont know coz i was busy yelling and crying, so when he told me its gone i jumped off and run to our house, i have never felt so safe like that in our house ever!! i hope im not the only person with these kinds of experiences because so far, with all the people that i have told these stories no one ever have those kinds of "encounter". some of them are also left with a question of why?. some of them say that maybe they have something to tell me or i have connections with them. like what? i may SOMETIMES dream that our world be magical but couldnt i get a more pretty or nicer animal to get my attention? my friend len said that maybe its my prince, id say "i've never read that fairytale story and i never will!!"